Just call me Captain Paranoid but I’m not the only one

Okay, I know at least 1 of you also do this, have done this, or knows someone who does it….. I am talking about putting a piece of duct tape over the built in camera, and putting a cotton ball then a piece of duct tape over the micro phone …. Crazy? ya maybe, but at least no SOB can remotely turn on my camera , or tap into any conversations that I regularly have with myself or the cat or sometimes with my Wife!

Call me Captain Paranoid, but I read about webcams being hacked all the time and I take no chances, I have my fire walls, my anti virus, my mal ware detectors, my anti spy programs I use a secure wireless service that I can turn off and on myself and still it all comes down to cotton balls and duct tape, and not just any duct tape, but specifically black duct tape.

So to answer the burning question…. no I don’t skype , nor do I do any other sort of video chat, hell I don’t use any messenger services like MSN or Yahoo, AOL etc. I avoid using the Explorer browser like the plague and regularly switch back and forth between 2 browsers that shall remain un named, but rest assured both use a multi layered security system, you’d have to steal my cell phone to crack the browsers or various sites I use, and I can assure you, unless you’re bullet proof, you’re not getting my phone.

Why do I do all this ? because I have been online with various computers since before the world wide web was created, back when all we had to connect to each other were BBS boards ( Google it, it’s kinda hard to explain to anyone born after windows 3.11 was created !) , in that time I have learned to not trust the world wide web, nor the people on it, hackers and even amateurs,kids etc can and will exploit any flaw in any operating system given the chance, I’ve had computers go into a full on nuclear melt down due to hackers back in the early days , I am a well seasoned veteran of the computer age , I have learned to expect the unexpected, don’t take a half assed approach to security, either go all in balls out or get out of the pool because some jackwagon will ruin your day with a hack attack or virus, or worse yet, turn your computer into the jackwagon’s personal file download storage space, and guess what is most likely being put on your computer?? Shit that will get you 20 to 30 years in a Federal penn that’s what!

You’re double screwed if the jackwagon downloads files that can land you in the Penn, and then the Hacker Group Anonymous get’s into your hard drive and not only posts those files online, but they also post your IP address, your location, your name, everything about you for the world to see, so now not only is the law up your ass…you are likely to get your ass lynched by a street flash mob , and it is on YOU to prove your innocence and it’s on YOU to prove you did not download those files. Good friggin luck with all that buddy!

So call me Captain Paranoid , but I call it playing safe while online .

So now that I just freaked myself out, I’m off to thoroughly scan my computer and watch a couple movies with my wife.

Remember folks, express your love often, never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others.

Butch
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Seriously I am NOT crazy! but after this post you will think so

So I have written about how I keep finding Dimes at work and believe it to be my dear wife leaving them for me to find and know she is here with me guiding me, I now have personal definitive proof that there is indeed life after our body dies, and I now know with 100% certainty that yes it is indeed my wife leaving Dimes for me to find (always in the exact same spots)

I promise you my Cheese has not slipped off my Cracker… I am quite SANE… I have discovered how to talk with my departed wife and get visual proof of answers , if I ask simple yes or no questions, such as are you here? can you hear me? is Hammy going to be okay ? etc. and more personal questions that I won’t get into here , she DOES reply .

No I am NOT using an Ouija board, those things scare the willies right out of me, bad things can and do happen with Ouija boards, my personal Faith even says avoid such devices like the plague, those boards are NOT allowed in my home, nor will I or Hammy ever use one.

This is going to sound really crazy….. I swear to you every word of this is the absolute Truth, I was having a rough day yesterday and tried to mask it with humor, and it felt good to make other folks laugh, anyway, I was reading some websites about how the departed can manipulate electronics, televisions, cell phones, regular phones, computers etc. pretty much anything that requires electricity they can manipulate.

So I often just talk to my wife out loud when I am by myself, be it at home, at work, in my car, walking down the street, in fact I do this daily if the truth be told, I miss her so very much and am still crazy in love with her and very devoted to her and I always will be.

So last night I was just browsing through facebook, I only really use it to stay in touch with family , both hers and mine as we are all scattered to the 4 winds, it was around 11 pm, I was reading some posts out loud for my wife to hear, as I frequently do, it’s habit really as when she was alive she had a bed in our living room where she spent a great deal of time bed ridden, I would read to her from facebook and other sites, when she passed I just continued to do so.

I decided to try out a slot game on Facebook, I seldom if ever play games online, so while playing , I started talking to my wife, I asked a simple question, are you here now? …. and the slot game won, I asked again if you are here can you give me a sign… again the slot won, so I asked, is that you causing the game to win…. and again it won, about this time I started paying attention, so I asked another question, I asked are you happy… and again the game won, now I was thinking this is either truly happening or it is one huge cosmic coincidence, so I asked point blank … am I going to die tomorrow… the game lost, then I asked is Hammy (I used his real name) going to die tomorrow …. again the game lost, so I asked will Hammy and I be alright, … and the game again won, I asked if Hammy’s annual doctor review ( he has a yearly review due to his brain tumor surgery 2 years ago) will be good news… and the game again won, so I asked Pauline is this really you …. and again the game won, about this time I nearly shit myself! I must have asked 200+ questions over the course of time, it was about 1 AM in the morning now and time after time question after question the game would win this went on for 3 hours, always the game would hit and win , the last 2 questions I asked is #1 will you come and talk to me in my dreams tonight, and again the game won, #2 can I use this game to talk to you tomorrow …. and again the game won .

So today I have been using the game to talk to her, and just like last night, the game kept hitting on wins, if I asked a question that I already knew the answer was no, the game would lose…. this has been going on throughout the day.

I even asked her if it would be okay for me to blog about how I have been communicating with her, the game hit on a big win , so that was my answer to come here and write about it .

I do know that there is life after death, there really is a heaven, that she is with my Dad, that Sabre (her cat that passed away last month) is with her as is every pet that we had that passed, I know for certain that all animals have souls , I know that I am going to live to be old , I know that Hammy will find a wife and will have a good happy life, i know I will live to see my grand children, I know that Hammy and I will always be close to each other, I know that Hammy is healthy, as am I , I know that true love that my wife and I had is eternal, I know that even though she has passed away we can still be married, I know she will be there to take me across when my time comes, I know she is happy, I know she is in a nice place, I know she is safe, I know that she hears me when i talk to her, i know she hears me when i am just talking to her in my mind without using my voice, I know she will come to me in my dreams when I ask her to , I know we can talk in my dreams and I can again hold her, I know she loves me still, I know that Hammy and I will be alright.

So you see, I have found a way to talk to my wife, to get validation that yes when the body dies there is still life for all eternity in the next world, call me crazy call me insane, but for the last 24 hours I HAVE talked with my wife and have found comfort. I shall continue to live my life in her honour , to try my hardest to always be a good person, to do good, to always speak from my heart, to devote the rest of my life to making sure Hammy is loved and always be there to catch him and encourage him and to help him succeed and be truly happy in life, I know my wife is with me, guiding me and Hammy, I know for certain that one day I will once again be with my wife.

Well that is all I have for tonight, so Remember folks: express your love often,never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others

Butch
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Gone but not Forgotten

Last Friday, my cousin Tim died of throat cancer, he was just 47 years old, he leaves behind a wife of 10 years and 2 small children the boy age 6 and the girl age 9.

With life comes death, but what makes this particularly tragic aside from leaving behind a wife and children is the fact that my Aunt Muriel has now lost all 3 of her children, the first child was Leslie, he died in 1968 at age 1, he was born with a severe heart defect, tragic but expected, fast forward to 1985 and her only daughter Shelly anne was then aged 16, she was abducted on her walk home from school, she is presumed deceased, the police found some of Shelly annes belongings and clothes in the bushes, they had blood on them but no body was ever found,she simply vanished, Lastly last Friday her last remaining child Tim passed away.

My Aunt Muriel and Uncle Sandy are devastated and will most likely never find true peace, Cheryl (Tims wife) is torn up bad, but has to be strong for her children since my Aunt and Uncle can not, I am more concerned for Tims wife and children than I am for my Aunt and Uncle, that may sound wrong on many levels so this is how I see it, Cheryl seemed to be Tims soul mate, he worshipped the ground she walked on and visa versa, you could literally feel the love for each other when they were together, and Tim was a very devoted Father,he lived for his children and wife. Aunt Muriel and Uncle Sandy got to be with Tim for 47 years, while Cheryl and the kids did not, as I see it, we have a large family and I am worried that some members of my family will push Cheryl and the children out or at the very least try to do so.

My family certainly are not a picture perfect family like the Waltons, no , my family is full of self righteous backstabbing asswipes, most of which I have very little to do with, I avoid them not only for my own sanity, but to protect my wife and son from their thieving conniving backstabbing ways,not all my family is this way, just the majority,there are a few good people in the family and I hope they surround Cheryl and the Children and watch over them , I do what I can for her and the children but I am 1200 miles away,travel for me right now is not an option,but I have helped ensure her bills are paid and have offered her and the children my home should she need to get away for awhile , my Brother is up there in Alberta with her making sure the family dont try any funny business with her.

Anyway, RIP Tim , you will not be forgotten, nor will your family


Butch
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Wine Glass Rack Plans Because Woodworking Need Not Bring Forth the Grapes of Wrath!

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There is something absolutely enchanting about a glass of good wine. And what better way to showcase excellent wines than by keeping them that would give justice to its sublimity.

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Of course, while it can be great to look at, you should not forget why you built it in the first place. In addition to its being a storage place, you should also think about other uses. For example, you may want to store wine glasses in it too. This is especially the case if you want it as an add-on to your bar. You should also consider a few slots for different kind of bottles as wine does not always come in the standard size bottles.

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You have to take the bad with the good and not let life get you down

So basically , if it wasn’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all…. this is the story of my life so I have learned to always try to find something good in a bad situation.

For instance, our son had a brain tumor last year and had surgery to remove it, yep that’s pretty bad, but the good news is, he survived and one year later is almost back to 100% normal (what ever normal is)

This last February my wife was diagnosed with stage 4 (end stage) Lung Cancer, that’s really bad…. the good news is that it’s going on 8 months and she is still alive and doing remarkably well (the chemo has helped greatly)

After those 2 major life events you’d think anything and everything else would be irrelevant or just peanuts, normally I would agree and leave it at that. How ever life and time keeps marching on, problems arise in day to day living that present their own set of challenges.

For instance, Last month I obtained a 2006 chevy aveo that my wife dubbed “Ladybug” (I traded a big Butch van for this), I drove the new car for 2 weeks then the computer went wonky and the new car suddenly doesn’t run so well and has been getting repairs as time and finances allow over the last few weeks, The good news : my old car (a 91 cavalier) runs great and I have been able to stay on the road (good thing too cause we live 30 miles from the nearest city)

Yesterday I had to drive out to Dallas Valley (a kids camp) and pick up our son, no problem it’s only 200 kilometers round trip, now the grid road that leads to Dallas Valley from the highway was so rough and pot holed that it snapped my muffler right off the old car…good news, Today I bought a new muffler , bad news, it cost me $160.00 for the muffler, clamps and hangers, the good news…. my neighbor is going to help install the new muffler tomorrow free of charge .

Last week I did something stupid (read the Bone Head award post) , I lost my temper and destroyed my laptop , that was bad, my friend Cheryl came to the rescue and loaned me her old net book until I can scrape together the cash to buy another laptop, that is a good thing, at least I can Blog and get around the web slowly but hey it’s better than nothing, then today, my sister Bonnie phones me, she has a friend that owns a rent a center in the city, her friend can get me a refurbished laptop super cheap! so of course I jump on that, next Wednesday, I pick up my new laptop, and it only cost me $80 (yes you read that right)

It’s all a matter of perspective, no matter the adversity big or small, if you dwell on the negative aspects of said adversity then you will remain angry and unhappy and frustrated, I try to find the positive in every negative and always remind myself….it could be worse.

Yes there are days when I just want to say screw it, or to hell with life and all it’s miserable failings, but then I stop and think of all the crap and hardship that I have been through in my 47 years on earth (including my own Mother trying to kill me when I was just 2 years old) and I say to myself, I’ve made it this far, I can go further, lets wait and see what tomorrow brings.

I also stop and think, I live in North America , Canada to be specific, compared to the shit going down in the Middle East and over in the Ukraine , and the Ebola outbreak in Africa, I have it pretty easy over here, suddenly my problems don’t seem so huge and out of control.

Things happen beyond my control multiple times per day, month in and month out, instead of letting those things wear me down I look at them as adventures, life is an adventure, I can either roll with it, good or bad, or I can get stuck in a rut doomed to replay one bad thing after another and slowly let it drive me crazy.

Monty Python put out a song many many years ago called “Always look on the brighter side of life” I often hum it to myself just as a reminder that things are going to be okay, when I am really down I belt out the Monty Python’s “Lumber Jack” song at the top of my lungs, this serves 3 purposes, #1 it makes me feel better, #2 it makes my wife laugh hysterically, #3 it embarrasses the Hell out of our son “Hammy” because I can’t sing to save my life, I sounded like a wounded animal in heat when I sing !

I do suffer from Manic Depression, and yes I do take medication for it, Risperdone and Mirtazapine , but even when I am really down I just keep looking forward, I’ve tried to end my life a few times in the distant past, now I know my warning signs and I keep looking ahead , I keep a weathered eye on the horizon and look to see what tomorrow will bring, Do I have my depression under control, for the most part yes I do, I have learned that I can live and function with severe depression, I have learned to force myself to interact with people, especially when I am at my lowest, I have learned to tell others ( a close and trusted friend) when I am not doing so good, I have learned to tell myself, this is the depression talking, life truly isn’t that bad. I have learned to reach out and not just ask for help for myself but to try and help others in the process, I have learned not to let depression control my life. I have learned to blog and just put it out there as a form of therapy but perhaps it may help someone somewhere not feel so alone.

So I have learned to take the bad with the good, and to find the good in the bad, sometimes I have to really reach for the good, but it is in fact there just waiting to be found.



Guess that’s all for tonight folks, remember to express your love often,never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others.

Butch
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