Seriously I am NOT crazy! but after this post you will think so

So I have written about how I keep finding Dimes at work and believe it to be my dear wife leaving them for me to find and know she is here with me guiding me, I now have personal definitive proof that there is indeed life after our body dies, and I now know with 100% certainty that yes it is indeed my wife leaving Dimes for me to find (always in the exact same spots)

I promise you my Cheese has not slipped off my Cracker… I am quite SANE… I have discovered how to talk with my departed wife and get visual proof of answers , if I ask simple yes or no questions, such as are you here? can you hear me? is Hammy going to be okay ? etc. and more personal questions that I won’t get into here , she DOES reply .

No I am NOT using an Ouija board, those things scare the willies right out of me, bad things can and do happen with Ouija boards, my personal Faith even says avoid such devices like the plague, those boards are NOT allowed in my home, nor will I or Hammy ever use one.

This is going to sound really crazy….. I swear to you every word of this is the absolute Truth, I was having a rough day yesterday and tried to mask it with humor, and it felt good to make other folks laugh, anyway, I was reading some websites about how the departed can manipulate electronics, televisions, cell phones, regular phones, computers etc. pretty much anything that requires electricity they can manipulate.

So I often just talk to my wife out loud when I am by myself, be it at home, at work, in my car, walking down the street, in fact I do this daily if the truth be told, I miss her so very much and am still crazy in love with her and very devoted to her and I always will be.

So last night I was just browsing through facebook, I only really use it to stay in touch with family , both hers and mine as we are all scattered to the 4 winds, it was around 11 pm, I was reading some posts out loud for my wife to hear, as I frequently do, it’s habit really as when she was alive she had a bed in our living room where she spent a great deal of time bed ridden, I would read to her from facebook and other sites, when she passed I just continued to do so.

I decided to try out a slot game on Facebook, I seldom if ever play games online, so while playing , I started talking to my wife, I asked a simple question, are you here now? …. and the slot game won, I asked again if you are here can you give me a sign… again the slot won, so I asked, is that you causing the game to win…. and again it won, about this time I started paying attention, so I asked another question, I asked are you happy… and again the game won, now I was thinking this is either truly happening or it is one huge cosmic coincidence, so I asked point blank … am I going to die tomorrow… the game lost, then I asked is Hammy (I used his real name) going to die tomorrow …. again the game lost, so I asked will Hammy and I be alright, … and the game again won, I asked if Hammy’s annual doctor review ( he has a yearly review due to his brain tumor surgery 2 years ago) will be good news… and the game again won, so I asked Pauline is this really you …. and again the game won, about this time I nearly shit myself! I must have asked 200+ questions over the course of time, it was about 1 AM in the morning now and time after time question after question the game would win this went on for 3 hours, always the game would hit and win , the last 2 questions I asked is #1 will you come and talk to me in my dreams tonight, and again the game won, #2 can I use this game to talk to you tomorrow …. and again the game won .

So today I have been using the game to talk to her, and just like last night, the game kept hitting on wins, if I asked a question that I already knew the answer was no, the game would lose…. this has been going on throughout the day.

I even asked her if it would be okay for me to blog about how I have been communicating with her, the game hit on a big win , so that was my answer to come here and write about it .

I do know that there is life after death, there really is a heaven, that she is with my Dad, that Sabre (her cat that passed away last month) is with her as is every pet that we had that passed, I know for certain that all animals have souls , I know that I am going to live to be old , I know that Hammy will find a wife and will have a good happy life, i know I will live to see my grand children, I know that Hammy and I will always be close to each other, I know that Hammy is healthy, as am I , I know that true love that my wife and I had is eternal, I know that even though she has passed away we can still be married, I know she will be there to take me across when my time comes, I know she is happy, I know she is in a nice place, I know she is safe, I know that she hears me when i talk to her, i know she hears me when i am just talking to her in my mind without using my voice, I know she will come to me in my dreams when I ask her to , I know we can talk in my dreams and I can again hold her, I know she loves me still, I know that Hammy and I will be alright.

So you see, I have found a way to talk to my wife, to get validation that yes when the body dies there is still life for all eternity in the next world, call me crazy call me insane, but for the last 24 hours I HAVE talked with my wife and have found comfort. I shall continue to live my life in her honour , to try my hardest to always be a good person, to do good, to always speak from my heart, to devote the rest of my life to making sure Hammy is loved and always be there to catch him and encourage him and to help him succeed and be truly happy in life, I know my wife is with me, guiding me and Hammy, I know for certain that one day I will once again be with my wife.

Well that is all I have for tonight, so Remember folks: express your love often,never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others

Butch
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WTH Does Blogger Google think Im going to Hell

So I am an avid blog reader, I love discovering new blogs, but I have to say it is somewhat of a daunting task to find new blogs using that nifty "next blog" button on the upper left side of any given blog page.

I usually find new blogs by sifting through the blogs I read , I check out their followers and readers lists, sometimes follow quietly through email at other times follow openly, I also turn to twitter to pick up links to blogs.

Everytime I click that "next blog" button on the upper left side of a blog page, Blogger or Google, perhaps both, send me to some overly religious blog, now I have nothing against religion, in fact I do follow a couple faith based blogs,but its those "holier than thou" or "you need to be saved" blogs that both irk and amuse me and blogger keeps redirecting me to these....why? I have 2 possible theories :1: Blogger thinks my soul is in danger because I am everything people like Pat Robertson and his ilk hate A Butch who is legally married, has a kid, is fairly successful and showing the world that lbgtq parents can and do raise normal heterosexual kids,that we can co exist in harmony with the social norm, and hey we are the same as anyone else with the same hopes and dreams,worries and concerns, in fact we are are just as normal or crazy as anyone else.

Or :2: the extreme right wing nutters and "God Warriors" are quietly taking over Blogger without anyone really paying attention or noticing! either way it is difficult if not near impossible to find blogs that are not overly religious using the "next blog" button, so if you find that someone has sifted through your blog followers list and snooped through the blogs your following list. fear not, tis just me searching out interesting blogs to follow and read, I rely on your lists for normalcy ha ha ha.

enjoy your day, now if youll excuse me Ive found a couple blogs to read that arent bent on saving my soul from eternal damnation for just being ME.


Butch
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Holy HollyHocks Batman!

For the past 3 years I have been lovingly cultivating,planting,weeding,and nurturing a single piece of root from a wild Hollyhock plant, why 3 years? because the first 2 years my little flower garden looked like crap as I tended to that little root nursing it to grow a single plant,then taking the seed pods from it and starting new plants.

it took 3 years to get that little piece of root to burst and bloom and turn into this !

I have been busy weeding and clipping the bottom leaves that yellow off and promoting a thicker lush growth

I have had to contain them by digging down about a foot along the border of the flower garden and building a buried brick wall, then placing railroad ties over that (mostly for definition and to stop our son from running the mower into the hollyhocks.

to add strength to the plants and prevent them from breaking during windstorms (which happen frequently here), I added tomato cages to the base and went to the dollar store and bought bamboo sticks , and staked each plant stalk.

Hollyhocks grow like wildfire and if you dont contain them they will spread rapidly and over run your yard, they dont require much of anything really or even good soil, mine are growing in a flowerbed that consists of gravel sand and yellow clay,I throw kitchen scraps into the flower beds and let them naturally decompose,I water once or twice per summer usually I just let the rains take care of it. Hollyhocks are a hearty tough plant that really require little care (if your lazy or lack time),I however tend to my hollyhocks because I enjoy doing so and by paying attention I can get them growing where I want them,and keep them there.

The front flower garden is a work in progress, I have some ornamental grass, a single transplanted wild tiger lily, and this,an unidentified flower, at first I thought it was a sunflower as up until this year I used the front flower bed to grow nothing but sunflowers, as it turns out it is not a sunflower, I believe it is a brown eyed suzie , but at the moment I can not be sure, so for now it is a mystery flower.

well thats about all for now, more pictures to come as I find more wild plants to transplant

Butch
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