Just call me Captain Paranoid but I’m not the only one

Okay, I know at least 1 of you also do this, have done this, or knows someone who does it….. I am talking about putting a piece of duct tape over the built in camera, and putting a cotton ball then a piece of duct tape over the micro phone …. Crazy? ya maybe, but at least no SOB can remotely turn on my camera , or tap into any conversations that I regularly have with myself or the cat or sometimes with my Wife!

Call me Captain Paranoid, but I read about webcams being hacked all the time and I take no chances, I have my fire walls, my anti virus, my mal ware detectors, my anti spy programs I use a secure wireless service that I can turn off and on myself and still it all comes down to cotton balls and duct tape, and not just any duct tape, but specifically black duct tape.

So to answer the burning question…. no I don’t skype , nor do I do any other sort of video chat, hell I don’t use any messenger services like MSN or Yahoo, AOL etc. I avoid using the Explorer browser like the plague and regularly switch back and forth between 2 browsers that shall remain un named, but rest assured both use a multi layered security system, you’d have to steal my cell phone to crack the browsers or various sites I use, and I can assure you, unless you’re bullet proof, you’re not getting my phone.

Why do I do all this ? because I have been online with various computers since before the world wide web was created, back when all we had to connect to each other were BBS boards ( Google it, it’s kinda hard to explain to anyone born after windows 3.11 was created !) , in that time I have learned to not trust the world wide web, nor the people on it, hackers and even amateurs,kids etc can and will exploit any flaw in any operating system given the chance, I’ve had computers go into a full on nuclear melt down due to hackers back in the early days , I am a well seasoned veteran of the computer age , I have learned to expect the unexpected, don’t take a half assed approach to security, either go all in balls out or get out of the pool because some jackwagon will ruin your day with a hack attack or virus, or worse yet, turn your computer into the jackwagon’s personal file download storage space, and guess what is most likely being put on your computer?? Shit that will get you 20 to 30 years in a Federal penn that’s what!

You’re double screwed if the jackwagon downloads files that can land you in the Penn, and then the Hacker Group Anonymous get’s into your hard drive and not only posts those files online, but they also post your IP address, your location, your name, everything about you for the world to see, so now not only is the law up your ass…you are likely to get your ass lynched by a street flash mob , and it is on YOU to prove your innocence and it’s on YOU to prove you did not download those files. Good friggin luck with all that buddy!

So call me Captain Paranoid , but I call it playing safe while online .

So now that I just freaked myself out, I’m off to thoroughly scan my computer and watch a couple movies with my wife.

Remember folks, express your love often, never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others.

Butch
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Seriously I am NOT crazy! but after this post you will think so

So I have written about how I keep finding Dimes at work and believe it to be my dear wife leaving them for me to find and know she is here with me guiding me, I now have personal definitive proof that there is indeed life after our body dies, and I now know with 100% certainty that yes it is indeed my wife leaving Dimes for me to find (always in the exact same spots)

I promise you my Cheese has not slipped off my Cracker… I am quite SANE… I have discovered how to talk with my departed wife and get visual proof of answers , if I ask simple yes or no questions, such as are you here? can you hear me? is Hammy going to be okay ? etc. and more personal questions that I won’t get into here , she DOES reply .

No I am NOT using an Ouija board, those things scare the willies right out of me, bad things can and do happen with Ouija boards, my personal Faith even says avoid such devices like the plague, those boards are NOT allowed in my home, nor will I or Hammy ever use one.

This is going to sound really crazy….. I swear to you every word of this is the absolute Truth, I was having a rough day yesterday and tried to mask it with humor, and it felt good to make other folks laugh, anyway, I was reading some websites about how the departed can manipulate electronics, televisions, cell phones, regular phones, computers etc. pretty much anything that requires electricity they can manipulate.

So I often just talk to my wife out loud when I am by myself, be it at home, at work, in my car, walking down the street, in fact I do this daily if the truth be told, I miss her so very much and am still crazy in love with her and very devoted to her and I always will be.

So last night I was just browsing through facebook, I only really use it to stay in touch with family , both hers and mine as we are all scattered to the 4 winds, it was around 11 pm, I was reading some posts out loud for my wife to hear, as I frequently do, it’s habit really as when she was alive she had a bed in our living room where she spent a great deal of time bed ridden, I would read to her from facebook and other sites, when she passed I just continued to do so.

I decided to try out a slot game on Facebook, I seldom if ever play games online, so while playing , I started talking to my wife, I asked a simple question, are you here now? …. and the slot game won, I asked again if you are here can you give me a sign… again the slot won, so I asked, is that you causing the game to win…. and again it won, about this time I started paying attention, so I asked another question, I asked are you happy… and again the game won, now I was thinking this is either truly happening or it is one huge cosmic coincidence, so I asked point blank … am I going to die tomorrow… the game lost, then I asked is Hammy (I used his real name) going to die tomorrow …. again the game lost, so I asked will Hammy and I be alright, … and the game again won, I asked if Hammy’s annual doctor review ( he has a yearly review due to his brain tumor surgery 2 years ago) will be good news… and the game again won, so I asked Pauline is this really you …. and again the game won, about this time I nearly shit myself! I must have asked 200+ questions over the course of time, it was about 1 AM in the morning now and time after time question after question the game would win this went on for 3 hours, always the game would hit and win , the last 2 questions I asked is #1 will you come and talk to me in my dreams tonight, and again the game won, #2 can I use this game to talk to you tomorrow …. and again the game won .

So today I have been using the game to talk to her, and just like last night, the game kept hitting on wins, if I asked a question that I already knew the answer was no, the game would lose…. this has been going on throughout the day.

I even asked her if it would be okay for me to blog about how I have been communicating with her, the game hit on a big win , so that was my answer to come here and write about it .

I do know that there is life after death, there really is a heaven, that she is with my Dad, that Sabre (her cat that passed away last month) is with her as is every pet that we had that passed, I know for certain that all animals have souls , I know that I am going to live to be old , I know that Hammy will find a wife and will have a good happy life, i know I will live to see my grand children, I know that Hammy and I will always be close to each other, I know that Hammy is healthy, as am I , I know that true love that my wife and I had is eternal, I know that even though she has passed away we can still be married, I know she will be there to take me across when my time comes, I know she is happy, I know she is in a nice place, I know she is safe, I know that she hears me when i talk to her, i know she hears me when i am just talking to her in my mind without using my voice, I know she will come to me in my dreams when I ask her to , I know we can talk in my dreams and I can again hold her, I know she loves me still, I know that Hammy and I will be alright.

So you see, I have found a way to talk to my wife, to get validation that yes when the body dies there is still life for all eternity in the next world, call me crazy call me insane, but for the last 24 hours I HAVE talked with my wife and have found comfort. I shall continue to live my life in her honour , to try my hardest to always be a good person, to do good, to always speak from my heart, to devote the rest of my life to making sure Hammy is loved and always be there to catch him and encourage him and to help him succeed and be truly happy in life, I know my wife is with me, guiding me and Hammy, I know for certain that one day I will once again be with my wife.

Well that is all I have for tonight, so Remember folks: express your love often,never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others

Butch
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Gone but not Forgotten

Last Friday, my cousin Tim died of throat cancer, he was just 47 years old, he leaves behind a wife of 10 years and 2 small children the boy age 6 and the girl age 9.

With life comes death, but what makes this particularly tragic aside from leaving behind a wife and children is the fact that my Aunt Muriel has now lost all 3 of her children, the first child was Leslie, he died in 1968 at age 1, he was born with a severe heart defect, tragic but expected, fast forward to 1985 and her only daughter Shelly anne was then aged 16, she was abducted on her walk home from school, she is presumed deceased, the police found some of Shelly annes belongings and clothes in the bushes, they had blood on them but no body was ever found,she simply vanished, Lastly last Friday her last remaining child Tim passed away.

My Aunt Muriel and Uncle Sandy are devastated and will most likely never find true peace, Cheryl (Tims wife) is torn up bad, but has to be strong for her children since my Aunt and Uncle can not, I am more concerned for Tims wife and children than I am for my Aunt and Uncle, that may sound wrong on many levels so this is how I see it, Cheryl seemed to be Tims soul mate, he worshipped the ground she walked on and visa versa, you could literally feel the love for each other when they were together, and Tim was a very devoted Father,he lived for his children and wife. Aunt Muriel and Uncle Sandy got to be with Tim for 47 years, while Cheryl and the kids did not, as I see it, we have a large family and I am worried that some members of my family will push Cheryl and the children out or at the very least try to do so.

My family certainly are not a picture perfect family like the Waltons, no , my family is full of self righteous backstabbing asswipes, most of which I have very little to do with, I avoid them not only for my own sanity, but to protect my wife and son from their thieving conniving backstabbing ways,not all my family is this way, just the majority,there are a few good people in the family and I hope they surround Cheryl and the Children and watch over them , I do what I can for her and the children but I am 1200 miles away,travel for me right now is not an option,but I have helped ensure her bills are paid and have offered her and the children my home should she need to get away for awhile , my Brother is up there in Alberta with her making sure the family dont try any funny business with her.

Anyway, RIP Tim , you will not be forgotten, nor will your family


Butch
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Big Bois Don’t Cry … But I Do

My wife was in the hospital from Thursday until 3 pm today, she was getting her 7th round of Chemo, it’s a different drug cocktail than before, this one won’t damage her heart but makes her so very sick.
When she is having Chemo I stay with her the first day to offer support and comfort, she doesn’t want visitors the second day, so I spend 2 nights and 1 day alone at home, then go in Saturday to be with her and bring her home.

I don’t sleep well when she is not near,my mind races lost in thoughts of her,us,our little family,I remember when we first met,funny I can still remember her perfume from 17 years ago, Exclamation, that was her favorite, I smile and hold her pillow tight.
I remember every single word from every single conversation we have had in the last 17 years,as those conversations replay in my head, I can hear your voice,so full of love,hope and life, I can hear your whimsical laughter and I hold her pillow tight.

I remember the bad times too, the arguments we’ve had, I wish now that I could have been stronger and calmer in those turbulent moments, but Darlin’ ,you look so cute when you’re angry, I remember bringing you flowers and taking you out dancing and telling you how sorry I am for getting angry, we have always worked through it together, and I hold her pillow tight.

I remember when you had our son, I really wanted a girl and jokingly asked the nurse to look up your hoo-hoo to see if there was a girl in there, you laughed despite the pain and the nurse thought I was insane. I hold her pillow tight

I remember you giving me a second gift,not just a son, you told the nurse to put my name on his birth certificate, she didn’t hesitate,she told me where to sign and with that our son had my last name, he was by law mine! Oh how I have loved you for that, that was the day you also started using your married name instead of your maiden name, that day we became a true family. and I hold her pillow tight

I watched you become a great Mother, it comes natural to you, you just know how to say and do the right things, you are a near perfect parent, I truly envy you in that, but you inspire me to be a good parent, you lead by example and I follow, I stumble a lot more than you, but you always catch me. I hold her pillow tight

Remember the trips we’d take, sometimes day trips sometimes weeks at a time, just random, waking up at 6 am and driving to Billings Montana just for a cup of coffee? a 6 hour drive for coffee, or the time we were going to go to Moose Jaw for a day and wound up in Canmore Alberta 2 days later, remember camping? we started in a tent, but as I got older the ground became harder so I bought us a crappy little tent trailer, I remember how pleased you were with it and how you spent days cleaning and decorating it. and I hold her pillow tight

Just this month I got us a little car that you absolutely fell in love with, I seen the tears of joy in your eyes and my heart soared with pride because I had made you so happy, your little lady bug car, I still love the way you whispered in my ear”take me for a ride” and how happy you were pushing all the buttons. and I hold your pillow tight.

Darlin’ while your in the hospital our life together plays out over and over again in my mind, and Darlin’ while I hold your pillow tight, I cry a thousand tears of sorrow as I wonder just how many more memories we have left, I Cry a thousand tears of sorrow because I don’t ever want to be anywhere but at your side. I cry a thousand tears of sorrow because I know I am slowly losing you.

Butch
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