I didn’t ask for this a brief journey through self discovery

I didn’t ask to be a single parent, I had always thought that we would be a 2 parent family, then my wife passed away and I was thrust onto the front lines of being a single parent, no manual, no guidance, no effen clue at all, I mean my wife was always there to help guide me in how to be a parent, she kept a cluttered but clean house, planned out meals a week in advance, new how to operate every single appliance large and small, knew what cleaner did what and what it was used for, she could budget so tight right down to the effen penny, she could stretch a dollar to make every penny of it count, she could make a school lunch in less than 3 minutes, and still have time to make sure my coffee was made just perfect….

I helped her, I pulled my weight and did my fair share, always with her guidance and help, everything ran like a well oiled machine and she was the only mechanic who knew how to keep it running so well.

Now she isn’t here to guide me or to help me, the whole machine is now a disorganized cluster f*ck! there is a lot of squeaky cogs in that machine she kept finely tuned, what took her an hour now takes me a few days, yes I keep the house nice, …. actually it IS nice (if I do say so myself) and it’s even de-cluttered ! as I said I am now on the front lines of being a single parent, waging war with time,knowledge (or lack thereof) , trying to keep a 13 year old human garburator fed and full, mending clothes , having to drag him along for buying new clothes (because I am too daft to know what size clothes he fits this week) , making lunches that he will eat, and doing every single thing that I used to do as a team with my wife….. alone.

I scour wordpress looking for single parent Blogs, (doesn’t matter if its a single mom or dad gay or straight) anything to glean a little knowledge in how the f*ck they do it and how is it they haven’t snapped and killed anyone yet! I learn tips and tricks for house cleaning, for fast easy meals…. how to work an effen crock pot and hey just a FYI here that I learned the hard way…. Metal doesn’t react well to Microwaves! but the light show is SPECTACULAR!!

Oh and another FYI Murphy Oil is for tables and wooden furniture do not and I repeat DO NOT use it as a linoleum floor polish!! it’s slicker than ice and doesn’t wash off easily… expect to use 2 bottles of Pine-Sol and a bottle of Dawn Dish soap to get that crap off the floor…. yeah that was 5 hours of floor scrubbing hell I can never get back!

I seriously question how single parents do it and survive, they do it year after year without complaint, I’ve only been at it going on 3 months and I’m already losing my shit!! on top of looking after the kidlet, the 4 cats and the dog, the house, the cars, the bills, the expenses, the unexpected expenses ( oh those are fun little shits….they always pop up when you’re broke!) shovelling snow, pumping out a flooded yard, thawing out frozen water hoses,general home repair (while praying nothing major craps out and needs replacing) , getting ready to fire up the home business again, working part time at the local bar, grocery shopping, clothes shopping, and about a half million things , every day all day 24/7/365 ….. and somewhere in there I am supposed to find me time? so I steal an hour here and there to goof off on the computer, visit blogs leave and reply to comments, squeeze in a blog post late in the evening while I wait for my meds to kick in, oh yes I have mental health issues on top of everything else to deal with…. my life is a real bed of effen roses!!

I haul my ass out of bed at 7 am every week day and end my night somewhere between 11 pm and 1 pm , and i generally do it out of love for my son Hammy, I get up and make sure he is fed and watered and off to school each day , and I do it with a smile on my face and love in my heart, I am proud of that boy, I truly am.

So I am getting a crash course on single parenting, it’s not fun or easy looking after every single thing on my own , well Hammy helps where and when he can, but you get the gist, but you know what?…. for all my whining here on this blog, I have big shoulders, I got this , I can do this, and I will do this, I do it all out of my Love for Hammy, and it teaches him that no matter what happens , life goes on, it also gives him some normalcy , it teaches him not to roll over and just give up or quit when things get rough, stuff he needs to know and the schools don’t teach.

So thank you for letting me rant like a lunatic , I feel better now, and know for certain that I can do this until the end of time if need be.

Remember folks: express your love often, never take tomorrow for granted, and be kind to others.

Butch
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Holistic Journey what exactly my wife is doing to combat the cancer within

This Blog post is about Holistic/Homeopathic Healing, particularly what my wife is doing to Combat her Lung Cancer, I want to STRESS that the Medical worlds use of Chemo Therapy is what in fact saved her life, and after 8 rounds of Chemo over the course of 8 months, she survived and was able to begin the Holistic part of her fight against Cancer.

All over the internet you can read about folks who have cured themselves with various holistic and non medical methods, Rick Simpson is a good example, he in fact did cure his cancer with Hemp Oil, there are many many stories about Hemp Oil and of people who have been cured from using it, and they are in fact true. Hemp oil is most certainly a good tool in the fight against Cancer, The reason why they don’t use it in Hospitals? Because the big drug companies can’t patent a plant that anyone can grow! Sad but true.

There are other Cancer fighters out there that can help combat, manage and cure Cancers, like B-17 ( Laetrile/Amygdalin) my wife takes it in capsule form 100 mg 3X per day, now the capsules are illegal in many places (due mostly to cyanide build up fears by the medical profession), Mexico uses B-17 in their hospitals to treat Cancer patients, if you can’t find B-17 in capsule form all is not lost, you can get Apricot bitters (crushed/ground up Apricot seeds) at your local health food or Holistic store, there is Laetrile in them, you can use a grinder and grind them down further and make your own capsules if need be, or sprinkle it in your foods and salads, you can also simply eat the crushed seeds.

Curcumin (Turmeric extract) is also another Cancer fighting agent, and is legal world wide, my wife takes 680 mg 3X per day in capsule form, this stuff does more than just fight cancer, if you have arthritis it helps lessen the frequency of the flare ups and helps boost your immune system, you can find a ton of information on Curcumin (turmeric extract) online and it’s various uses.

Cannabis Sativa seed oil is a weaker but legal version of Hemp oil, it can be found at health food stores and Holistic stores , my wife takes 760mg 3 X per day in capsule form , the THC level is so low that it’s not even mentioned on the ingredient list, but the Cannabinoids are all there that are needed to combat cancers where as Hemp oil is high in THC. (Hemp oil would obviously be the better choice of the two, but you work with what’s available) Hemp oil is really expensive and unaffordable to many people (including us) so we use the affordable Cannabis Sativa seed oil..

Another thing she does is change the PH balance in her body, Cancer likes an acidic environment, 1 teaspoon of Baking Soda in an 8 ounce glass of lemon water (no sugar) and she drinks that 3X per day to maintain a PH balance that the Cancer can not thrive in…. Baking soda was found to combat cancers very early in the last century (late 1800’s early 1900’s) there is a lot of info online about it.

Finally Chemo destroys your immune system, making it so you can’t be around people with colds or flu’s or any illness as what is minor to them could be fatal to you, the medical world generally doesn’t tell you when your immune system will start recovering or if it will recover at all…. so many questions left unanswered, for a mega immune booster (and again a cancer fighter) Honey and Ginger , I make mason jars of this for my wife, basically I fill half a mason jar with honey, then the other half with fresh shopped and diced Ginger and mix it all together thoroughly, my wife takes 1 teaspoon 4X per day straight out of the jar, it has to be a plastic or ceramic spoon as metal spoons cause some sort of chemical reaction, I found this recipe online , and I can tell you after 3 days of her doing this her energy levels are through the roof!

These are the Homeopathic medicines that my wife uses, I can’t tell you what capsule is working or what combination she is taking that is working, but what she is taking is helping her, is it Curing her Cancer?? … I won’t be able to tell you until February the 11th , when we find out the results of the CT Scan which happens February 4th . It truly is helping her, but if it’s curing her we don’t know just yet.

I won’t say screw the medical world and fight cancer on your own with Holistics and homeopathy, that choice is yours and yours alone, but I will say that supplementing medical treatment with holistics can be a good thing and generally won’t hurt you, But Definitely look into Hemp oil, if you can afford it and obtain it , it may just be the magic bullet as there is so much information out there on it.

The whole point of this post is NOT to say screw medical help, the point is to put it out there and make people aware that there are alternatives, that there is more options than just Chemo, to get people to start researching alternatives to Chemo, to make people aware that we do not have to rely on the big drug and pharmaceutical companies to heal us when we are broken, that there are alternatives, to share information on what works, or seems to work, to make people aware.

The above regimen that my wife is on is working for her, will it work the same for you? I don’t know, as I stated we are not sure what combinations are doing what, so we stick to them all and that seems to be benefiting her a very great deal, she is pain free and has no shortness of breath, she is able to have an almost normal life again, she feels good and is healthy, as I also said she gets a CT scan February 4th and we will find out just how much all of this is helping February 11th, and you can bet I will post the results here in my Blog.

So that’s it for now, from My little Family to you and yours , Have a Blessed and Merry Christmas

Remember folks, express your love often,never take tomorrow for granted,and be kind to others

Butch
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