She looks so small and helpless laying on that bed hooked up to various machines, I didn’t want to leave her side and fought back the tears as she told me to go home and get some rest, you see I don’t like being away from my wife any more than I have to be, I always worry that something will happen and I won’t be there, (the real fear is her passing quietly without me being there), I grudgingly agreed to go home after nearly 5 hours at the hospital with her, I know she was politely saying “get lost I need rest” so I left.
I am home alone for the night, our son “Hammy” is in Prince Albert at a friends farm until sometime tomorrow, The house doesn’t feel like a home without my Wife’s presence , and it’s cold and uninviting without the sounds of our son’s laughter , it’s just myself , our rottweiler/shepherd X dog Memphis (the handsome dude I use as my gravatar) and 4 psychotic mousers, Tippy,Saber,Peepster,and Teddy Bear, thank my wife the animal lover for all the cats, the dog is mostly mine but goes to my wife the most (friggin traitor).
I should say I am not entirely alone, our house is quite haunted (laugh if you want but I speak the truth) there is an older woman and little boy who mostly hang out in the kitchen, an old man who walks up the stairs late at night , a couple little kids (at least we think they are children) who like to play with your hair or tug on the bed sheets while you sleep, theres an old woman that goes from the mudroom to the washroom and you usually see her shadow pass by the shower curtains when your bathing or showering, doors that open and close, unseen footsteps , things get moved, and yes our animals bug out, the dog often stares at the wall and will bark at what appears to be nothing, the cats will suddenly roll over and show their bellies and purr up a windstorm, you always have this feeling of being watched.
It’s not like the movies no demons or evil spirits, just ghosts of the past who perhaps once called our house home, we are used to this and after 6 years of living here have never been intentionally frightened or terrorized in anyway, we often speak to them with kindness and ask them to watch the house while we are away, we usually don’t see them just hear them, but once in awhile they show themselves, I often wondered if they see and hear us or are they just going about their business as they did when they lived? hmm something I have often pondered.
As I have stated before our house is over 100 years old, so it has memories, things tend to happen when ever we do a renovation or upgrade something in the house or yard, now I tell the unseen folks what it is I plan on doing to the house , such as replacing the toilet, repainting or moving a wall , it’s just habit now.
Since my wife took sick with Lung Cancer we have noticed orbs, usually white or light blue around the house, this is new to us, again nothing threatening or scary, but most folks can’t stay long at our house, they get weirded out from the feeling of being watched or from hearing things or witnessing a door open or close on its own, my sister is really jumpy when she is here, so of course I have to be the prankster (asshole) and I like to stop talking in mid sentence and look over her shoulder in surprise, there’s nothing there of course, never is, but she falls for it every time and nearly pees herself LMAO!
Anyway that’s it for tonight, remember to express your love often, and never take tomorrow for granted . Peace be with you all
Butch
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